Money Money MONEY

The economy is awful, it is old news now.  Regardless, I still can't help but stress constantly about money, bills, and daily living expenses.  I haven't been as broke as I am now in years and what's worse is that I have been busting my butt to find work or save money with minimal success.  My connections in the work place are barely pulling through and continue to go back and forth with complications.  I still don't know if and when I will be hired at my old job.  I am also facing the burden of paying four months of rent this summer for an apartment I am not even living in.  I am sitting on a dwindling savings account and an uncertain fate with employment, or the lack thereof, so I have no idea how rent will pan out.  On top of this and other financial issues, my main goal for this summer was to save up enough money to afford some good travel time while studying abroad in England this Fall.

Everything is so up in the air right now and the only thing that is constant is the steady decline of my bank account.  I would be more accepting of these circumstances if I were just lazy and made no attempts to get anywhere but I have been doing the complete opposite for months now.  It is no longer a matter of not being able to afford "wants" but it is now an issue of barely being able to afford "needs".  Can anyone relate or am I just wasting a blog post with unnecessary complaining?  Sometimes I wish money didn't "make the world go 'round".  I know things could be A LOT worse but for how much energy I am putting into things, they could be better still.  I am grateful for what I have and what I have accomplished as well as for the people in my life so I know one could argue that I have no right to complain but I guess I just needed a minor digital release.  Moving on.