Ramblings on life

Here I am again, up late at night when I should have gone to sleep a few hours ago. Might as well ramble on the robosphere for a bit. Today is the 18th of June 2009 and I leave the U.S. on a flight to England on August 18th. This summer is already cruising by at an unbelievable rate and I will be living in Hogwarts before I know it. Even though I am beyond excited for the experience that is about to unfold I still wish summer would slow down. I feel like life goes by faster and faster each year and it's hard to believe that I will already be a senior this fall. A lot of thoughts cross through my mind when I think about how fast life is moving. It makes me think of all the things I have been through, all of the things I have yet to experience, all of the hard work I have accomplished and still need to accomplish, all of the life goals I have had, all of the people I have met, how much I have changed in certain areas, how much I am going to change still, the relationships that have come and gone, the many things I am grateful for, etc. This probably sounds awful but I have even been noticing elderly customers more often at work and thinking to myself how afraid I am to turn old. There is so much I want to experience and accomplish in life, so much I want to do for myself and others in what seems to be such a short time.

It feels like just yesterday I firmly decided which major I want to study at school and now I only have a year to a year and a half left to gain the knowledge and skills necessary before I'm off to the "real world." I used to hate St. Cloud State so much too. Freshmen year was not very enjoyable at all and sophomore year, although a bit better, was not my idea of a great time. It was not until this past year, halfway through my college career, that I finally started warming up to St. Cloud and actually loving it there. It's sort of ironic too being that this past school year had its fair share of negative happenings. Regardless of some hiccups along the way I am now really enjoying my time at SCSU and life in general lately has taken a big turn for the better.

As the title suggested, this has been nothing but ramblings. No rhyme or reason really, just some stuff in my head at the moment. There's a ton of things on my mind right now that I could spill out but I'll save the rest for another time so I don't get too blah blah blah on you. If there's anything to take away from this post it would be this... I recommend living your life for the good and not dwelling on the downfalls, mistakes, negativity, whatever. Don't allow stress to consume you, if you want to pursue something you love then go for it (more on that later), if things are not working the way you think they should or the way you think you deserve then try to fix it. Life is way too short not to be happy. I have been trying to live by this for awhile now and even though it can be hard, it's totally worth it.